hello hello....im back for another post...yes it has been a VERY long time since my last one.....im sorry....jus been busy....i had part of a post saved and ready to finish...but i kept forgettin about it so yea....thought id jus make a completely new one......neways....i found out last thursday that my dad is goin to let me go to Germany next June to visit Julia.....he told me and juls that thursday before we left for the softball game.... so yea....thats about the only exciting news i have.....

   moving on.....i have been house/animal sitting since sunday nite for mr ed and mrs barbie....it has been a lot of fun....abby is the sweetest dog ever......she is so playful and lovey.....and she will jus love on you as soon as you walk in the door....im loving this new house/animal sitting stuff im doin.....i have two more jobs lined up in july....im so ready for it....tomorrow is my last day for doin this....im kinda wishing it could have lasted longer....but oh well....it has def been fun and a comp new experience for me......but now i have 2 more house/dog sitting jobs to look forward to...so all is well.....

   welps...i got into a deep thinking the other day......and im still sorta in that deep thought about a few things.....i was asked a few questions yesterday that brought me back to my "past" happenings....if something life changing wouldnt have happened to you...where do you think you would be at right now?...do you think things would be different for you?......that is one thing that i keep wondering myself.....i wonder sometimes if the fact that my "sense of security" hadnt been taken away from me at a very young age where i would be at today....mainly meaning my "relationship status".....i have never thought this "deeply" about it before....but after being asked a few questions yesterday it jus all came to me at once....it makes me wonder if i would actually be in one today.....i have come close so many times.....but i have come to realize that it takes me so long to get the "safe feeling" for the guy that by the time i feel that safe feeling.....its over....all we really did was "talk" for a few months maybe even less than that.....i jus dont get it....i came so close to thinkin that i had finally found someone....someone who seemed like everything i had been looking for....and ill admit things went very slow.....and by the time i had the ok feeling.....i guess he jus wasnt feeling it nemore...it had taken me so long that his feelings wore off....atleast.....i think he had some sort of feelings...it seemed like it....but i threw it all away......

   well neways....sorry.....i will cut all this off right there.....i wont go on with nemore of this.....dont want yall to get too bored....but neways....i guess im goin now....hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week!....

Britt